Nope, it's still bugging me.
Written at 2:40 p.m. on 2005-11-08
It's still bugging me. I can't get it out of my head and I think I'm going to have to discuss it with the parents even if it does mean I get the usual that I get when I point out I think my brother has done something out of order, the lecture on "You're such a selfish bitch, why can't you just support him?"
It's not that I don't want him to get married, I do. I wan thim to be happy and if this girl does that then good luck tot hem. But 6 weeks after mine? It's going to decimate my guest list because some who had said they'd come won't be able to come to both, But it isn't that, it isn't even that he didn't even think to ask if I had a problem with it, just assuming everyone would drop into place with his plans, as they always do. It's attention. My brother has been the centre of attention his whole life. When he was little it his digestive problems, then his behavioral problems, then his socialising problems, then him being the most intelligent person ever (as mum told everyone). She used to tell everyone that the head teacher of the primary school said he was the most intelligent child she'd ever taught. I went to that school before him and with that and the fact that he was touted as a genius and I was the one no one ever expected to acheive anything it hurt. Once he got older it was problems with his then girlfriend Gill, followed by his trip abroad and getting together with Susanna. Then there was him getting dumped and everyone flapping round him for months, then he joined the religious group and it just goes on. Then I got engaged and for once since he was born I was important. The one who doesn't have huge dramas and life crises and just gets on with it got noticed. It was lovely. Now he's done it again, he's seized it back because everyone is discussing that now. Are they or aren't they too young? WIll it work? What will they do when they move to London. And I'm back in the shadow.
I know all this sounds horribly self pitying and I suppose it is but it's how I feel right now and I promised to be honest on here. So that's how it is. Just another crap week listening to people talk about my brother.
